Spirit

each thought themselves different, exceptions really. or like spelling it out makes it okay; you know when a splash of red, a slap on the cheek is played out slowly. a hint of pink, a touch on the arms like friendliness, comfort - i trust you that seems to imply a lot of things not yet earned;

asked god to a fevered man, whose fever rose to a screaming pitch - isn't it obvious? then lucidity calmed his nerves as he thought about his first date, who was she? ah yes: foxy cunning one eyeing his fat wallet, out you go, when he found himself

peels, peel back the layers to find the inside too has changed. what took you so long? asked the heart. a stranger stares back and says, it's almost done now, mostly complete,

i played dice with the devil today, and he smiled at: such butterflies flew about in my stomach! hey devil, i said, i barely know you, yet feel i've always known you, it is hard to describe, yet my emotions run deep,

give me what i want: can't say it, you're refuse outright if i did! let's do some tap dancing, some fantasy, some outright lies, some half truths, some decency, some music, some rap, some pink clouds in the sky,

had lots to talk about, seemed like he knew it all. he could quote this, the bible, the quran, the bhagavad gita, sutras, sartre, kant, locke, jung, adler, freud, aaron t beck, toffler, and i was beginning to wonder if all that learning

goes up in smoke without fire. sublimation at it's finest, no residue. finds a way in again, it always does

the religious man, the saint, the sinner, the gambler, the criminal, the agnostic, the atheist, the nihilistic they all met on a sunday picnic and it was really quite predictable, quite horrifying, quite enlightening, quite amusing, quite remarkable how they all agreed on what they had in common.

they were friendly, cordial, respectful almost too nice. doctrines whispered, the north begrudgingly switched south and the captain had a glazed look when a soft push, a nudge, a well intentional advise simply went past the moat - into the heart.

it feels like sleep coming, a shutting down of capacities, awareness, knowledge - with only a hum of a slow flood of dopamine into a half hearted attempt to grasp on a life saver. but life saver this is not, this closing of the mind, of emotions locked up