Spirit

it hints, it extrapolates, it meanders, it sings, it is a song of disturbance that pricks the spine, the heart understands fear of nightmare proportion - whose chambers are filled with tortured souls yearning; of normal days taken to be mundane,

i placed an idol, a dollar's worth of grocery into this cheap old bag; clutched it tight to my chest, i ransacked the library for old wisdom lost, believing that perhaps a message could turn plight to might; feeble dreary worn down body aching to rest on an alarming loud horn blasting past, another one of those

it's just inner dialogue, no big deal a shuffling of feet - a candle gets lighted up: who goes there? and a muse began to sing; found i started to copy

ah life - ... ... exquisite. a tremendous river cascading, breaking down dams unbreakable; stones, concrete, sand rushing forth when a force is first felt, moved, breath

turn on, turn off, roll down the blinds roll up the blinds - a boy has become a man, with time rolling across the sand; crest, subsides, wails and lashes but the man holds fast to memories of a boy grasping at a controller, eyes glued to the television screen

happens at many levels, the superficial, the deep, the middle and most look to the surface - see how behaviors transform, when situations morph; and yet beneath

contradicts, wrestles, argues back dictates, strongarms, regrets, becomes moody, hurtful, silence, then happiness, maybe not a silver lining echoes of yesterday, today repeats like a circle, loop, endless -

it's easy to regret when the deed is done, it's easy to apologize when lines are crossed, it's easy to mistake correction for wipe the slate clean, it's easy to have a new year's resolution when brutal tides have not hit, it's easy to go numb when the endless tasks don't seem to end,

w h o s p e aks? a tremor, a wide eyed man whispers in the dark. and it was a gut instinct, a reflect, cerebral barely lighted up before the hammer went down

started out blank, write me. mama did. then papa. then sibling, relative, then neighbors, schoolmates, teachers, superficial whatever works. in the process, works, deeds, titles