not what you wanted to hear,
not what is.
exactly what you too face,
haven't you seen this thin ice cut into skin
so very thin?
grit, grin, groan, grating
that i was not an atm,
or the last person on your list
to call since no one else wants to
pick that damn number,
or when only smile and play coy
if a carrot sticks out.
is said to be do as you want, do what you want
whenever you want.
but biology has a way of penalizing, bringing sentences
no judges do.
ouch, a pain, a brain fog
or a slow anguish - till a person starts to bargain
a trick played once, quite dazzling
when the enchantment is great!
puppets move as if of own volition,
a clown becomes laughter of the party
even though it pulls the strings
and an enraptured audience sways like
it's what y o u want -
to feel good when the tide is high
surf towards the moon!
a tugging, a coherent not possible
gets shut down.
towards the sky, sun, stars
looks easy on paper, execution not so much
then they say not to give a sermon,
i've been guilty too of giving sermons.
who wants a lecture?
burn, burn, burn in hell!
who wants that?
a fever, a headache, a sneeze
and it really could be anything
without going through all that diagnostics,
what is it?
a malaise, a despondent feeling, a negative energy
and the fortune teller said a tall handsome man
the world reflected what he wanted to hear,
then he found it wasn't what he felt
when the word came pouring in.
the heart reflected on the word rained down,
the man found the logic within actions
that the passion came pouring out.