the pact and the ask

why did you change lilith? damsel illuminating - in ways i cannot fathom but to seek. when deep in your muses, you gave light, what brightness a star evaporating and burning so. i thought you stood for a bedrock unchanging, a solace i could wrap my arms around and stay safe. of the paradise you had whispered in dreams, like dreams parting at day break - i sought too for bridges that could mend all time: imperfect. with dots on your petticoat i saw a bird on a fence - sing. colored, nostalgic, unassuming, all the best parts of you littered into that gray caravan walking along those yellow bridges brought down by a flood. memories of you now made clear. of what you did do. and then it was a parting of the mist, my short sighted vision - that you will change, when the price was high enough! many a men to dine with, to be with. sleep with. and it meant nothing. even deception. for you too compromised, and said - i was the unlucky one, holding fervent a dream just a dream. pop. you said. pop. i said. when i found that you had changed, all these years - promises binding to be let loose in that rebellion when you said, it was yours to have. no matter what. and you changed, it was a price quite clear, a transaction - like all things on earth, mundane earth and you said to me, don't you know my darling? that's all there is in this wild utopia changing scene by scene, wave by wave. and you adapted. became who you are, the world toast you - riding those waves, undeniably defiant! against the heavens. they gossip behind your back, when you're standing at the top. strike you down, when luck has run out that this is no quick way for a home run - i cannot imagine any other outcome then, you've followed the ways of the world. all just a transaction, in a world dashing around your petticoat spotted with many dots of - just being practical. the same crowd, that reflects your image.