Pedro enters brackish waters

A lifetime of sacrifice and pretending otherwise, my funny stories, my demeanor made to look cute, cute for you, my jokes once again for you, since it seems you are too thick to understand that I have no need to jokes when they have been rehearsed a thousand times, from me, to me in a mirror and all I wanted was to laugh it off but I cannot when your presence is thick, like sulpur, poisonous fumes I cannot intake, I am languishing while you are laughing and you are the joker though your face is serious, unknown just another a placid, stranger's muse, I fall behind, a shadow of yours and all this while: you told me how happy I was.