faithfully regretful

trail the path of regret in hopes of finding enlightenment, a way out, from mistakes, errors, blemishes, on face needs cosmetics when scars are said to be non removable. and it makes no sense, because dirt gets fed dirt, dirt grows then the cancerous growth becomes this permanent idol made from daily worships. it has grown strong, it has grown tall, it has grown to be accustomed to controlling, one meaningless being still scrambling to bring forth sacrifices, the black smoke fills up the nostril of a sleeping man who has a coughing fit, "hey knock it off would ya?" but there is no answer. the faithful are bent on the irrational, with Dionysus drunk on wine, more, he burped out a string of memories, phantoms, ghosts that clung to the devout, faith is addictive and the man has awoken from his stupor, shouts again "mind that foot!" but his calls are being ignored, the towering idol is powerful and bends the once strong to heel, aghast, shivering with fear, it is all a frightened man can do - bow low. the man laid down to rest when talk was ignored, shut off, unheeded to the raving man, who claimed his hard work has been spurned. "get over it," and he went back to sleep, dreaming of godless days when the paths made sense to all, till a living god cried out, he is living isn't he? but belief is irrational, based on faith, more faith is needed, or so the logic goes and the spiral twists, elongates, transforms till the human now shows all signs of plain psychosis. it made no sense at all, to follow a non living god - mumbled the dreaming man ... ... but those around still went about their ruts, labels are dished out fast when the money exchanges hands: stop thinking and let the spirit guide: what spirit? which spirit? the man twitched in his sleep, unable to fathom the evidence, the logic, the perplexity: like trying to make sense of meaninglessness to eradicate nihilism, and it makes no common sense till the alien ship comes aboard, a journey made across the universe: find planet binary, hashtags. the lizard brain took over, and the devout they worshiped clay and made it god.